“The hope was, people like me got to finally find our place in college or in the actual world. People who understood this told you that high school wasn’t the actual world, that it was more like a temporary alternate reality you were forced to believe in for four years. A video game you played, where you could never get to the next level no matter how hard you tried.”

I read this again today, and it’s crazy that I stumbled upon this because it is EXACTLY what I needed to hear

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

I have read this verse many times before. I don’t think I ever fully grasped it until today, well this weekend I mean. I’ve always struggled a little bit with the way I look. I mean I know I’m beautiful, but sometimes it’s been a struggle. I am extremely confident, but then I have days where the beauty only runs skin deep. Those are the days that I feel I am not beautiful, but then I have to remember how much I have to offer on the inside. 

I am not exactly sure what it was about these past couple of days, but something clicked with me to make me realize that I am loved, and someone thinks I am beautiful. God made me in His image, and knows that I am a beautiful piece of work (emphasis on the piece of work, haha). I think before that I have always wanted someone to be there to tell me I am beautiful. Someone to affirm my worth. It surely didn’t come from my mother, and my father was just never so good at expressing his feelings unless it was a birthday or some other major holiday. I know they both love me, but neither really truly made me feel beautiful inside. 

I looked for those affirming words from other people, and just wasn’t always receiving them. Then I just quit. I quit this weekend. I quit looking for affirmation from others. I quit looking for someone to tell me I’m beautiful. I KNOW I am beautiful because I was created by the maker of the universe. God don’t make no junk and I was not created on an accident. I was create with intent and purpose. It is time to truly start embracing that fact. You should too. 

You should know that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. You were not created on accident. You are beautiful. You have something unique to offer this world. Don’t forget that. Don’t diminish yourself, and don’t give up on you.